Saturday, July 19, 2014

The Fault in Our Stars


This is the book cover. I read this novel before I watched it. I was bliss that I read before I watch it. Because while watching the movie my mind kept contemplating the scene coming next. Movie played for 126 minutes ( however in Malaysia I supposed it's only 120 minutes as some kissing and make out scene had been censored), and I had no idea why time passed so fast! I enjoyed the whole movie from the beginning till the end. 
If I were to use one sentence to conclude the movie, it would be:

"HAZEL GRACE  LANCASTER IS SO HAZEL AND AUGUSTUS WATERS IS SO GUS!"


Told you I read the book. If you haven't watch the movie yet (please tell me that you are going to watch it SOON!), and you are lazy to read the whole book, YESHI have this little summary for you. 

This is vaguely a simple summary so please don't expect to know the whole book in details by just reading this. Trust me, as you won't regret to grab this book from bookstore and regurgitated it for few times (yea I wanted to reread it). You will be mesmerized by the humor in their conversation and overwhelmed with the emotion they had, just by reading WORDS. 

Okay, Let's START! 

Let's study about the title perhaps. (Thanks to Dr Thomas now I study every words in novel, thinking that every words the writer used has its implied meaning. *clapclapclap)
THE FAULT IN OUR STARS. 
Why is fault? Maybe because both of them are cancer patient. This is the fault in them, they are somehow the side effect that goddamn cancer thing. 
Stars? Not really have a clear cut thought at why it's stars? John Green said that drinking champagne is like drinking STARS. 

FOUND IT IN WIKIPEDIA
"The title is inspired from Act 1, Scene 2 of Shakespeare's play Julius Caesar, in which the nobleman Cassius says to Brutus: "The fault, dear Brutus, is not in our stars, / But in ourselves, that we are underlings."

retrieved on 20 June 2014
 http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Fault_in_Our_Stars

Hazel Grace Lancaster, a 16 year-old girl. She has thyroid cancer when she was 13, undergo treatment, chemo and etc, finally the cancerous cells attack her lungs and in order to breathe, she needs to carry along an oxygen tank everywhere. 
Augustus Waters, a 17 year-old boy, he has osteosarcoma and therefore he has his leg amputated. He is a very cheerful person, in spite of having a prosthetic leg. 

After they first encounter in the Support Group, Gus immediately dated Hazel to his house to watch a movie- "V for Vendetta". They exchanged number and they start to date each other. One of their favorite spot is a playground near to a cemetery, Funky Bones. It's a place with huge skeletons on grass and kids climb and jump across those "skeletons". 

Hazel's greatest interest is reading. And her all time favorite is a book named " An Imperial Affliction" written by Peter Van Houten. It's a book about a girl Anna who has cancer, the thing happened between her and her family. However this book ended in an awkward way, ended literally in the middle of a sentence. She likes this book so much as she thinks that this book depicts the life of a cancer patient so well that she desperately wants to know the ending, what happen to the other characters in the story. 
Of course she tells Gus about this book and wants Gus to read it too. 
When your crush asked you to read a book, you cant think of a reason not reading it as it can somehow impress your crush. 
So, 
Gus read it and reread it and he as well wants to know what happen to the other characters. 


Gus writes email to Peter Van Houten and he invited both of them to visit him in Amsterdam. Cause he is afraid that telling them the ending of the book through black and white may have resulted in the exposure of a sequel. So Peter offers a meet up. ( However in the later of the story Peter claimed that it's just a polite reply, he actually doesn't mean to ask them for meet up in Amsterdam)

There are a few important scenes happened in Amsterdam:
1. They have a very romantic dinner in a restaurant, Oranjee. 
2. They meet Peter Van Houten and they are so DISAPPOINTED and UPSET when they realised that Peter is actually a drunkard who insult them lot. 
3. However they walk around Amsterdam after meeting the rascal Peter. They somehow Level-Up their relationship here (if you get what I mean by Level-up)
4. Gus tells Hazel that he has ache in his thigh before this Amsterdam trip therefore he went for PET scan and he LIT UP LIKE A CHRISTMAS TREE, HIS LUNGS, KIDNEY, EVERYWHERE. 

They return to Indianapolis, Gus gets sickened and all those treatments and chemo started. 
Gus's humor slowly fade off. He wants to be special, he wants to do something big that may publish in newspaper and everyone will remember him. But now he is sitting in a wheelchair, shrinking, dying off just like that. 
Hazel couldn't agree of that. She thinks that Gus is great in spite all of that and she will remember him for the rest of her life. He could be her universe. 

Gus passed away after staying in ICU for 8 days. Hazel eulogizes him in his funeral. Surprisingly Peter attended the funeral too. He was there because Gus knew that he is dying and he hope that Peter could give Hazel an answer, what happen to the other characters in "AN IMPERIAL AFFLICTION". 
But Hazel is too sad to know about that anymore. 
She rejects Peter. 

Later on she finds out that Gus wrote something when he was sick and he sent it to Peter. 
She contact Peter and finds out that before Gus warded in ICU, he wrote his eulogy for Hazel and sent it to Peter hoping that Peter could amend it for him. 
Gus hopes that he can give a eulogy speech in Hazel's funeral but he knows he have no more time for it. 
Though Gus couldn't read it, Peter reply his email saying:

"NOTHING MUCH THAT I COULD ADD."

The novel ended by Hazel reading the letter written by Gus.

My summary might be so so so brief, I am not a good writer either.
Perhaps I should read for the second time and make some amendments afterwards.

Let's end this post with quote from The Fault in Our Stars.


“I fell in love like you would fall asleep: slowly and then all at once.” 









Friday, July 11, 2014

Day 10 as Leng Lui Lou Si.

Officially ended my second week of intern in school. It's about a quarter past. Only 6 more weeks to go.

Time flies. 

Nothing much to tell today. Cause it's a kind of typical day as a teacher. 

Didn't have any special feeling or thoughts as well. 

Neither feel very excited nor emo. 

Everything just NORMAL. 

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Thursday, July 10, 2014

Ben & Lynette

Working as part time in Hush Puppies and I went to Ben & Lynette when I had my break. 
Lol 
Please clap for my geniusity. 

At first I thought the food there just so so. I mean there are hell lot of cafes outside which have so comfy ambience and cute decoration but the food they served is overpriced which don't deserve such high price cause it's not that tasty pun. 

I went to the Ben & Lynette before. It's the one next to Secret Garden. I had Turkey Carbonara and I think that it's too oily. 

OVERALL, I AM NOT IMPRESSED. 

But today My brain short circuit and I went to the Ben & Lynette branch in Ipoh Parade. 

And. 

I CHANGED MY MIND! 

Maybe their turkey carbonara still remain less impressive. But the other dishes, generally it's not bad. I would give a thumbsup for Chicken Cordon Bleu!!! 


I LOVE IT! 

 
Look at how they set the dish. How they put the cordon bleu into that love shape. And the grilled mushroom, vege. 

FABULOUS!!!! 

Would highly recommend this!! 

 
Let you have a closer look at the chicken breast meat which cover ham and cheese. 

Nom nom nom. 


Also ordered Alfredo. This is better than the beef Alfredo which I had in Harvest Time in Penang. The Alfredo there taste no different with carbonara. This one got a strong taste of certain herbs. I don't know what's the name of that herbs but I know I have tasted the same thing in different type of spaghetti. 


This also impressed me lot. TIRAMISU!! That smooth texture when I had a spoonful of it. It got a little of alcohol but not that strong. Served in small size but satisfying. Gonna try other cake next time but I think it's not that worth it. Cause a small piece of cheese cake cost RM13.90 with that small size and also 10% service tax. 
Kinda feel like not worth it. Better I go Twelve Cup or China House. 


And stupid me this time also ordered Turkey Carbonara. It tasted the same as the one I had last time. Oily and made me lost my appetite. 

Okie. 

GOOD DAY COMES WITH GOOD FOOD. 

Day 9 as Leng Lui Lou Si

Use almost a week to let myself adapt to the environment. 
Now I would say that I am already well adapted. 

Now I feel very comfortable staying in staff room doing my stuff. Before I go to class I will look for information needed say the English class. I browse the reference books left by the previous teacher ( the one whom I replaced him temporary) or read through the lecture notes again hoping I can get something for my form 4 students. 

When I get bored with English. I study Sejarah.
Yes. 
I STUDY FORM 3 SEJARAH ALL OVER AGAIN. 
I started from chapter 5. Read all those historical facts which I used to be so familiar with. Of course also draw mind maps while I am reading. Hopefully students could comprehend it easier if I show them the mind map first. Giving them a general idea of the content of that chapter. Then only we go into details like the SYARAT SYARAT PERJANJIAN TERTENTU and all those FAKTOR FAKTOR. 

Well. I think I am soon gonna start reading sivik too. Because I am teaching 4D for Pendidikan Sivik. That's not a very good class academically. But they are not bad either, they are just naughty ( I mean some of them. Not all. ) 

Yea when talk about 4D class, there was one thing which moved me so much. 
As what I had said, it's not one of those academically brilliant class. In fact it's kind of the 放牛班。Most of the time they didn't pay attention in class and they have very low proficiency in language, be it in BM or BI. It happened that I am their Sivik teacher for these 8 weeks. The previous teacher have been absent for about a month. Even when they wetr having sivik class not all of then copy the notes. I remembered when I first entered the class, I asked them what would they want to do. They said they wanted to sleep, go to computer room or even library. Anything but not SIVIK TEXTBOOK. I was not surprised. Even the first class wouldn't like sivik lecture in sivik class. I don't like it either when I was in secondary school. 
But this Monday, I had a sivik class with them. We had an agreement before that we are going to use one period of sivik to read text book and the other period we will be going to computer room or library. 

SO I THOUGHT EVERYONE IN CLASS LIKES THIS DECISION. HOWEVER I WAS WRONG AND I AM GLAD THAT I AM ACTUALLY GETTING IT WRONG. 

Blur?

There were a few students told me that they would prefer to have me study text book with them instead of going to library or computer room. 
Do you know how exactly I feel? I wouldn't feel so surprise if I get it from 4S1 or 4S2. But it's from 4D. The fourth class of art classes. I moved so much!
And the students who said that included a guy who wore a broken white shirt and always sleep in class. 

Do teachers neglect the minority students who are not as intelligent as the other and pay less attention on them? 
I dare not to say yes. Cause I have only been as a teacher for this short time. Not to say I am just a temporary teacher. There are a lot of work that I didn't do. I never key in student details to the system. I never attend any contact hour yet. There are lots of document work which I never done before. And I only being exposed to these students for few days and some of the moments they literally made me torn my hair out. 

How about the teachers who have been teaching for so many years? 

This post gone a little lengthy. Let's just end it with some pictures. 

 Have been so long I never sit in a school canteen till yesterday. 


Having relief class today to JAGA the students while they having PJ. 

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Day 7 and 8 as Leng Lui Lou Si.

Day 7 I was having a mood swing due to some serious matter. But I think it's normal in the working world so imma gonna eat it all. 

Lol 

But Day 8 was great. 
PT3 is going well. 
Perhaps. 
=]
And my English class goes well too. 
Since it's only 1 period so I let them do some revisions and exercise on literature. 

In The Admist of Hardship. 

Monday, July 7, 2014

Day 6 (week2) of Leng Lui Lou Si

INTERNSHIP WEEK 2 officially started. 

How do I feel after been 5 days aka a week staying in a staff room, being a secondary school teacher, rushing for the Sejarah PT3? 

That feeling is COMPLICATED. 

I don't enjoy much staying in staff room. The atmosphere was tense. I think I have some communication problem here that I don't know how to talk to the TEACHERS around me. There are teachers who are super nice. However Most of the time I am day dreaming at my place. Sometimes I read book "THE TIME KEEPER" by Mitch Albom, sometimes I simply scroll my phone to look through some newsfeed. But I feel guilty doing this two acts, it's like I am not respecting this place. In my mind staff room is a place for serious worker but not for someone like me who constant confusing about her duty and do some nonsense thing. 

But the feeling changed when I was in class. That was for Week 1. I am happy kid when I am in class. Though I constantly shouting like a mad lady, in my heart my happiness overwhelmed. I enjoy the time banter with my students. I like the way we communicate and I surprise at the way how the teenagers nowadays think. They seems to be much open minded I supposed. Not like my time where I was being confined in certain frame (limit) which I mean. They tend to be more creative and outspoken. 

However in my deep thought, I want to be a responsible teacher. As what I had said earlier I hope I can bring them something which they can't get it from other teachers. Hopefully they will still remember me after the 8 weeks and even after they grew as adult. That's more like the life values that I want to indulge them. 

But first of all, maybe I should concentrate in my current syllabus first. I am teaching Form 3 Sejarah, Form 4 English and Form 4 Sivik. 

Sivik wouldn't pose a big problem to me. I am going to teach as well but I will be more like talking and some copying. 

The same goes to English lanaguge for Form 4. HOPEFULLY wouldn't bring me great problem as I am an ENGLISH FOR PROFESSIONALS no matter how. Maybe I just need to go through the lecture notes all over again. Okay I admit now I am in great remorse. WHY I NEVER CONCENTRATE IN CLASS AND NEVER COMPREHEND THE KNOWLEDGE! 

Here comes the biggest problem of all. The Form 3 SEJARAH. That's not a prob for me to REGURGITATE the text book and teach it in an interesting way. In fact that's one of my thing. But but. What the heck is PT3?! Students are required to write a RENCANA. It's something like the assignment that we used to write in varsity but this is easier because they got help a lot. But they have NO EXPERIENCE in it!! They don't even write karangan frequently and now the government actually expect the students to come out with a full report ka?! And they even being asked to search for all the references from different sources like newspaper, encyclopaedia, internet, books, journal and a lot more. 

AND THIS IS THE FIRST BATCH OF RENCANA WRITING. 

So basically some teachers went for training and some not, like me. I am totally blur about this stuff and I have 4 Form 3 classes with me. 

Oh my Gawd! Can't you hear my heart cracking? 

Bing Ling Bang Lang!  

I have never undergo any training to teach and control a class. But now when I need to get use to the students so that I can figure out the best way to communicate with them and in the same time I need to convey those important information to them. Which apparently most of them didn't listen It well so they keep on asking me the same thing after I explained to the whole class. 

IT'S A MISERABLE STORY. 

But still 

SO FAR SO GOOD. 

I am still full with positive thinking with my internship. 

Cause everything will be fine. 

Friday, July 4, 2014

Day 2,3,4,5 as the Leng Lui Lou Si

Decided no more calling these as the Kong PigPig version as now no more students call me that instead some call me leng Lui Lou si behind my back.  

Yes behind my back cause I have spys to tell me all that. 

*justkidding 

I took this few days to understand my students more. I try to be friended them and in the mean time I try to be a responsible teacher. 

Let's talk about what type of teacher-student relation that I hope I can attain in this short 8 weeks time. 
1. Let's be PEER. Way more respect exist in peer relation than merely FRIEND relation. Since I am not many years elder than my students I don't want to always use my position as a TEACHER to pressure them. But Also I can't accept us to be friend, that's too casual. Peer would be someone who able to share your problems and to talk to. 
2. Let's teach well. When talk about teaching, not to mention the form 3 History that I am taking over. I have only 1 class of English language. Luckily that's 4S1. If not I wouldn't know how it should be when lecturer comes and evaluate me. I hope I can bring them knowledge that they would appreciate. Not just text book syllabus but also in the other way. But I still haven't figure it out exactly heh. What do I want to teach and how am I gonna do it. 

Currently what's on the hit in my teaching  life now is the darn PT3. 
Most of you don't know wtf is that. 
That's Kerja Tugasan Sejarah. Students need to write a full RENCANA, which is almost like the assignment that I used to do but it's in Malay Language. 

IT'S TOUGHER THAN WHAT YOU COULD IMAGINE. 

Basically I need to explain every elements in the PT3 in every class. I have 4 form 3 classes, and more than 40 students in each class. Just a rough calculation I have about 160 form 3 students. Not to mention another 2 form 4 classes that I am teaching. 

I made the explaination over and over again. Of course one of the reasons is I am not experience enough in giving clear instructions and also students master different level of comprehensiveness. So it ended up I saying the same thing for this whole week in different classes and explain all over again to absent students who absent and those who don't understand my explanation in class. 

Inspite of all these, I still think that my first week of being a secondary school yea her, simply AMAZING! 
 
Everything will go fine.