WOW!
It’s always unbelievable and amazing, when every time I have
to remind myself that I am going to be 22. Just right before my birthday, I talk to myself...
“Hey! Don’t make people judge you by your age, ‘cause I should
be judged by my maturity.”
*powertothemax which is also one way for me to escape from
the fact that I am a year elder, stepping into the adulthood while deep in my
mind I think I am not ready for it yet.
Where the heck all the resolutions and life achievements go?
Again, grandma stories, I want to ask myself, what is it
LIFE all about?
Likewise, LIFE can’t be pigeonholed; it’s never one or only
one thing. It is a great mix up of all great things in life (sometimes included
some bad things too). No matter what, I still agree that everyone has a
different view and definition for life. But, but….
ACTUALLY LIFE IS JUST A PROCESS OF YOU BREATHE IN AND OUT OF
OXYGEN TO GET YOUR BODY SYSTEM FUNCTIONING ESPECIALLY YOUR BRAIN SO THAT YOU
CAN MAKE DECISION IF YOU WANT TO CONTINUE THIS BREATHING PROCESS, NOT.
LOL.
Tell me if you agree not. I just got this definition while I
am writing this. Yea life can be wtf-ing easy and clear depending on what we
want and how we want to do it.
In my coming 22, there are things which I want them to come
fast and things which I don’t.
Cheerfulness and positiveness please come fast and stay with
me around.
Smiles laughter you cant run away either. Constant companion
yo.
I don’t ask for happiness but I want gracefulness and
appreciation. Learn more on how to appreciate everyone in my life, no matter they
come for pleasing or teasing, I appreciate them.
Moderateness I need you too. I remembered how I wanted to be an ordinary girl back before I
enter my 20s. I don’t want to be extremely good or extremely bad at something. I
just wanted to be moderately good at everything, like every ordinary girl
around you which you most probably wont even pay attention to her when she
passed by.
I don’t want to be an all time winner. Losing occasionary is
way better than winning. Simply because sometimes you don’t win because you
deserve to, but because they let you to. Which is not what I want.
Love please don’t come so fast. I still can’t handle you. When
love is not something as simple, I realized every relationship is making me getting less
confident at myself. Am I a total jerk in relationship? No no nooo.
Yeh so far that’s it I guess.
I still need an honest 2014 summary in a day or two later.
A literally honest summary, I don’t wanna lie to myself
cause I am using you to record the pace of my life. So that I can recall back
everything at my 50s.
Lots of love.
Second last day of 2014.
30 December 2014
