21 Years and 11 Months in SHORT

WOW!

It’s always unbelievable and amazing, when every time I have to remind myself that I am going to be 22. Just right before my birthday, I talk to myself... 

“Hey! Don’t make people judge you by your age, ‘cause I should be judged by my maturity.”

*powertothemax which is also one way for me to escape from the fact that I am a year elder, stepping into the adulthood while deep in my mind I think I am not ready for it yet.

Where the heck all the resolutions and life achievements go?

Again, grandma stories, I want to ask myself, what is it LIFE all about?

Likewise, LIFE can’t be pigeonholed; it’s never one or only one thing. It is a great mix up of all great things in life (sometimes included some bad things too). No matter what, I still agree that everyone has a different view and definition for life. But, but….

ACTUALLY LIFE IS JUST A PROCESS  OF YOU BREATHE IN AND OUT OF OXYGEN TO GET YOUR BODY SYSTEM FUNCTIONING ESPECIALLY YOUR BRAIN SO THAT YOU CAN MAKE DECISION IF YOU WANT TO CONTINUE THIS BREATHING PROCESS, NOT.

LOL.

Tell me if you agree not. I just got this definition while I am writing this. Yea life can be wtf-ing easy and clear depending on what we want and how we want to do it.

In my coming 22, there are things which I want them to come fast and things which I don’t.

Cheerfulness and positiveness please come fast and stay with me around.

Smiles laughter you cant run away either. Constant companion yo.

I don’t ask for happiness but I want gracefulness and appreciation. Learn more on how to appreciate everyone in my life, no matter they come for pleasing or teasing, I appreciate them.

Moderateness I need you too. I remembered how  I wanted to be an ordinary girl back before I enter my 20s. I don’t want to be extremely good or extremely bad at something. I just wanted to be moderately good at everything, like every ordinary girl around you which you most probably wont even pay attention to her when she passed by.

I don’t want to be an all time winner. Losing occasionary is way better than winning. Simply because sometimes you don’t win because you deserve to, but because they let you to. Which is not what I want.

Love please don’t come so fast. I still can’t handle you. When love is not something as simple, I realized every relationship is making me getting less confident at myself. Am I a total jerk in relationship? No no nooo.

Yeh so far that’s it I guess.

I still need an honest 2014 summary in a day or two later.

A literally honest summary, I don’t wanna lie to myself cause I am using you to record the pace of my life. So that I can recall back everything at my 50s.

Lots of love.

Second last day of 2014.

30 December 2014 

Media Prima

Media prima is the broadcasting company in Malaysia which included TV3. NTV7, 8TV, 9TV, One FM, Fly FM and Hot FM. It located just a stone away from the shopping mall One Utama. 

Why do I need to tell you this? 

Hehe

My school organize a trip to visit this place. Frankly I was not attracted at first and wanted to ditch it because of the frightening 10 hours bus ride (round trip). But at last I still make it, which I am quite grateful that I made it. Cause it's really amazing. 

This is me with only 5 hours sleep. Slept at 1am the previous night and woke at 6am to get ready. It's already a miracle cause I could wake up all by myself without any morning call. Gather at 6.45am but departed at 7.30am cause we waited for some who didn't turn up in the end. 

Selfie with my bus mate. Ms Teng. This photo taken before both of us fall into soundly sleep. LOL

Still look fresh cause we just enter the bus yo. 

Selfie with my VPD. Without much edit cause the sunlight is too good for any edition. She had a new hair cut which I would give two thumb ups for it. 

*thumbup x2 

Credit to VPD. This photo been taken perfectly except I look fat in it. But well this is a fact so I also can't comment much. 

I am just fat. 

This semester almost end and finally we had this opportunity to take a group photo and everyone looks so great in it. 

Wow. It's like FINALLY. 

hehe 

This is what I had for lunch. 

Chicken with mushroom, come together with soup and vege. 

Taste so so. Not extremely tasty or what. 

Just average. 

Then finally we heading to Media Prima. 

This is their old studio which they no more using now. Cause the old one has a lot of LCD screens as the background. The crews have to adjust the motion of the video everytime camera rolling for news. 

Now they have a new studio which use virtue background. 

The professional camera. 

Office of TV3. 

The studio with virtue background. 

Me acting to be a news reporter. 

We passed by One FM studio and saw William. 

Well, normally I am not a very hard die fan of his. But I literally turn crazy when he came forward and waved to us. 

Oh my god I was so overwhelmed that time. 

Silly till take PHOTO with him. While he was doing live. 

Me no medicine cure d. 

And, this siao za po. She purposely came from Semenyih to One Utama just to meet me, for 5 minutes.

Feeling extremely sorry to her and in the same time it moved my heart so much. She who still haven't master the driving skill but willing to drive and stuck in traffic for about 1 hour just to see me, even for a very limited time. 

I love you biao Mei.

Would conclude that it is a very satisfying trip. 

See you soon. 

<3 

Can I have Life Without BB Cream?

BB cream is my most loved cosmetic ever! (Which is of the same level with eye brow pencil and brown eye liner). What's been so AMAZING about BB cream is, it literally makes my face fairer, for I have natural tanned skin; make my pimples and scar less observable; and most importantly make me look more energetic because finally I can somehow hide my black eye circle. 

But the path to discover BB cream that suit you the best is tough and full of risk. 

Why is it so? 

1. QUANTITY USED AND QUANTITY BOUGHT. 

Most of the BB creams come in small packaging, but it takes quite some time to finish it. Let say if you gonna apply it daily, a 18ml BB Cream from Maybeline takes me about 3 months to finish it. Just if you bought one new brand of BB cream and you realised it doesn't work good on your face, I consider throwing it is a waste, so no matter how I will insist to finish it before I could get myself another brand. 

2. PRICE 

Honestly I don't allocate much budget for cosmetic. Therefore most of the time I will go for economical brand like Maybeline. Well once in a while pamper myself I'll go for Shu eumura as well as some weird brand. But frankly, you get what you paid. That's a huge difference between the quality of these products from different brand. But well having the thinking that I am not a very professional makeup beautician, therefore I am satisfied with my budget cosmetic. 

Here is my BB cream family. 

Yeh no doubt, I consider foundation as BB cream family too, after all we use them to cover flaw on our face right?

1. Garnier Miracle Skin Perfector 

Don't bother about the fancy name yet, it's a BB cream. Price about RM18.90 or something like this which is very very cheap. I just grabbed it when I found it in Watson even tho that time I haven't finish my current BB cream yet. 

This BB cream smells good, this is the reason why I bought it. Most of the BB cream in the market got a very typical smell ( very difficult to describe that weird scent, but certainly not a favourable scent). But this smells like facial shampoo or facial cream from Olay or Garnier itself. 

If I've need to use one word to describe the smell, it would be REFRESHING! 

2. Maybeline Clear Smooth 8-in-1 Transformer 

This BB cream comes with a lot of different tone. I used 01FRESH. It's a tone lighter than my original skin colour. It's of standard price at RM19.90, not sure if the price had inflated not but it has been kept in this price for quite some time. 

What I really like about this cream was, it changed the tone to match with your actual skin colour after you apply it for a short time. This is those HIGHTECH function which I can only find from those very expensive cosmetic, for instance Kanebo Kate, which we can't get BB cream from them at RM19.90

Another thing so great about this is, it looks very natural after applying.  There are some BB cream which I find out that I'll look pale if I gonna apply it for the whole day. This BB cream from Maybeline give you a more cheeky look but it's kind of oily. So basically your cheeks look red red very cute but your face is oily. 

Seriously love hate relationship with this. 

3. Étude House Precious Mineral Sun BB Cream 

Many of my friends told me that Etude  House sells very good cosmetic. Well at first I don't have confident at this brand, cause it looks so fancy from the outside which don't attract me from the first impression. But, well after I bought this, it somehow proven my hypothesis is half wrong. 

Half wronged as in, it's a good BB cream but my face had allergy to it. 

Bought this at RM39.90 or RM49.90 I can't remember well. This BB cream comes together with a sponge at the cover. So you can just squeeze it and apply with the sponge to have a more even BB cream apply. 

It last longer, no oily face. Overall not bad, but it caused allergy to my face which now my face is full of pimples and scars. 

4. Maybeline Angelfit Flawless Natural Liquid Foundation 

Oh well this is not a BB Cream but most of the time I used it as BB cream too, which is not good to the skin. Most of the time I apply this as the first layer and then apply another second layer of BB Cream. 

I forgot the price but I guess you can still get it from any Maybeline kiosk. 

So what I like about this foundation is that; it's not plain yellowish or white kind of cream but it's more to pink. Ignore my tanned skin but I think it will look great on those who has a fairer skin. Cause one of the thing I realised when I use BB cream was my face look literally WHITE which is awkward and obvious that I applied a lousy BB cream. But oh well this gives you a more natural look. But best apply it with sponge or brush. Or else it won't be evenly applied if you just use your finger to tab it onto your face. 

5. 

Product mom bought from Cosway. I don't usually use powder form of foundation cause I couldnt do it well which ended up look very fake and weird. But this is okay. I not sure how true it is but it is stated in the product description that it can be applied in dry powder form or even mosture cream form. 

I don't know about the price but it's one of the Cosway thing which mom uses it regularly. Guess it would be from budget price too. I used it quite often when I worked, just use it as the second layer after I apply BB Cream. Of course without the Maybeline Foundation or else my face would be full of cream. 

6. DermAfirm Intensive Blemish Balm

My current favorite BB cream. This is the sample I got from my friend but one little sample pack could let me use for about a week or even more. 

Basically this is a brand from Korea which still don't have any proper shop yet in Malaysia.( I guess.) 

And my friend happened to be the distributor of this brand in Malaysia. That's why he so generous and gave me a lot of samples from this brand. 

So I couldn't tell you how much is it since even I myself didn't know that. But I LOVE this. 

It is not the same with the other BB cream that I've used as in a little amount of this can give you good covering effect already instead of squeezing a lot from the other brand. And I also realise that it is better in covering my pimples and scars and give me a more youthful look. Well I know I am not old yet but my skin condition is kinda bad recently. Then it also comes with extra minerals in it. So when I apply it on my face I feel like I am killing two birds in one stone; got my face look better without scars and pimples while in the same time nutriening my face. 

Heh heh 

The best thing ever on earth. 

But oh well, guess that I'll have to stop applying any cream on my face now except toner and moisturiser before sleep.  Solely because, my skin condition is AWFUL. 

So dry and the pimples grow like rubbish along the road after pasar malam. 

But soon, 

Imma gonna get back to my BB cream life!! 

Jiao Sai - Maggi Goreng

I have been crazily craving for MAGGI GORENG in Penang recently. My love to MAGGI GORENG had been escalated to the extent that I walked for 1 hour to dabao my beloved MAGGI GORENG. The desire to have maggi goreng as lunch emerged at 3.30pm, and I was safe and sound in my room with maggi goreng in my hand, at 4.30pm. (okay this's rare, only when I don't have car and I wanted to walk around)

Yea proudly I would tell you the top 3 Maggi Goreng of my own. 

(in fact I've also tried only 3 different maggi goreng in Penang)

1. Golden Phoenix food Court

Location - The newly opened Food Court in Sungai Dua, Just next to Universiti Sains Malaysia. 

Reason - Surprisingly tasty, a little bit spicy and it's acceptable. Not a lot of fried beancurd but it comes together with chicken slice. Maggi and chicken are being cooked separately, that's why the chicken itself got another sauce (which I have no idea what sauce it is but it's nice)

Price - I order Maggi Goreng with Chicken everytime and it's just RM4

2. Super Tanker Food Court

Location - You should know it. The food court near Bangunan Lip Sin. 

Reason - It's quite spicy. Seriously if you cant take pungent food, you don't want to consider buying this. The hawker here very generous one. Cause she put a lot of beancurd, some crispy I dont know what it is and the portion is quite huge too. I didnt put it as the First merely because it taste nice but it didnt surprise me because I simply feel like, it's nice. and thats all. 

Price - RM4.20

3. Jiao Sai

Number 3 in this list which also means the bottom of all three. 

Location - It's the same road with 火锅之家，steamboat is at your left, look at your right hand side, when you see a smiley face by Happy Mart, and a Joo Huat shop, yea please turn right and you will see Jiao Sai.

Basically THERE ARE A LOT THAT I WANT TO TALK ABOUT JIAO SAI

1. THE NAME

What my friend told me was, Jiao Sai means - BIRD SHIT

They then told me the history of this Jiao Sai, that at first it was at a place where a lot of birds stopping at that area and they shit. So people named it as Jiao Sai. 

Till now even the shop owner himself also decided to name the shop as BIRD SHIT. 

Hor Chiu bo?

but okay la, quite creative also.   

You can look at the signboard, can't you see the white spots on it?

Yesh! Dont doubt, that's BIRD SAI. 

They never forget to put the SAI on signboard cause now there has no more birds after they move to this new shop lot. 

LOL

2. THE MAGGI GORENG

Frankly I am not fancy at his maggi goreng. First, the instant noodles that he used, I think it's those TomYam instant Mee from Thailand. When he fried it, he put in the Tomyam flavoring from the instant mee itself. 

So, what I was thinking is that " I have this kind of mee at home, and I can just cook the mee and I can still fried it myself! What for I 山长水远 go to Georgetown and get your version?"

What I had was a small tomyam maggi goreng. They still got big one which I see had not much different with my small one. 

Yea it comes with SUNSHINE EGG and chicken too!!

The egg is okay but a big NAY for the chicken. It's mostly skin but not flesh. I want the chicken daging I dont want the kulit chicken!

*fliptable

3.THE PRICE

Humphhhhhhhhhhhh

Honestly, I think that it's a little bit overpriced. I am totally okay with pricey food, but provided that it's tasty! I am so much willing to spend all my penny for GOOD FOOD. 

But......

Just have a look at what we had that night

2 plates of regular maggi goreng tomyam (now I dont even bother to call it as a SMALL, I rather say it's a REGULAR swt)

1 plate of large maggi goreng biasa

3 air limau ice

1 milo panas

All of the above cost us RM30.50

I dont know how much is the noodles and i dont know how much is the drinks either. 

Although I dont have to pay for this meal (obviously a Good Samaritan gave us a treat), but I seriously feel so pain for the money used. 

5. THE COMPANION

Nah you see. 

I was being Jio-ed for this random supper after I finished meeting with musical drama crews. I was walking, on my way back to hostel. 

and Siao Zha bo (Jie) just dropped me a call and she started complaining, that I've never make time for her ever since this semester started. And she complained and complained and complained. 

SO I gave in and here we go! 

JIAO SAI!

Yea so you can pardon me for that dowdy look ya!

Maggi Goreng is over and I shall start looking for other food.

CARBONARA maybe?
*hiphiphurray

My All Time Favorite Disney - BEAUTY AND THE BEAST

What did you do when you was young? Like a baby or toddler. Do you give speech or presentation? Do you cycle around your housing area? Or you sit down quietly read and study?

Yo you are GENIUS if you are doing any one of that. 

I aint genius cause I spent most of my childhood time watching television program and read comic books. 

I am always proud to enumerate the television programs I watched in my CHILDHOOD. 

Dragon ball. I watched the whole serial and I remembered how my heart pumped when Goku turned into a gorilla so big that I was afraid that he might broke the television screen. 

I watched this even when I was eating. 

There are a lot more which am so lazy to put up their pictures here. Say, SailorMoon, Crayon Sin Chan, Inuyasha, Full Metal Alchemist and a loooooooooooot. 

Besides of all these Japan oriented animex, I watch Disney cartoon as well. Not sure if you remembered there were a full serial of BARBIE DOLL CARTOON. 

This is one of the Barbie Doll Cartoon which I can remember. 

But out of so many, my favorite is still BEAUTY AND THE BEAST. 

I can't tell you exactly the reason why I love this Disney movie so much. Maybe becaus when I was in primary school, there was a boy who said that I looked like Bella in this movie. Then I looked at the cartoon calendar at my school that time, and I murmured in my mind: yea I did look like Bella. LOL. 

I know my over-self-confident kind of personality was already with me since I was young. 

But well I am an adult now, but still Beauty and The Beast is my favorite Disney movie. 

I see this as a true love story.

True not because of Bella fall in love with Beast even if he is a beast. True, because I see that with wealth, even a beauty would fall in love with a beast. 

I also know it's a fact that Bella she didn't even care how frightening Beast looks like from the outside, she loved Beast's personality. That noble attitude that he is not willing to hurt human even if the villagers attack him. 

But can Bella ever noticed all these positive sides of Beast if in the very beginning, he didn't appear in that luxurious way? 

Master of a big castle and hundreds to thousands of servants. 

If Beast in this story were a poor little begger at the village that Bella lives in. Will the same ending happened? 

Are they going to fall in love too? 

I guess it may ended up that Bella will help Beast, because of sympathy. And in the end they won't stay together, happy ever after. 

It just won't happen. 

True love never exist. 

Even if you think it does, it's just a mixture of materialism and lust. 

Explanation need or need not?

Well I would say that life isn't just about growing up and learning all sorts of knowledge. 

It's also about giving explanation and receiving explanation. 

Let's first talk about EXPLANATION. 

Before all of these, why don't we think upon, in the first place, why is explanation needed? And whom do we dedicate all these explanation? 

LOL it seems a little bit legit. But it's a question worth squeezing our brain juice for. 

We spend a lot of our time explaning. 

We give explanation about our motives, our thoughts and what not. 

We explain so that people could understand us. 

We want to make the situation clear. 

We want the people involve to look at the real matter by him/her self but not simply listen to all those third parties.

We hate misunderstanding. 

We dislike miscommunication. 

But once in a while. 

I wondered. 

Why do we need to explain to those who decided to doubt us? 

Okay you may say that I am stubborn cause I hold too much to my own principles. 

But it's my life and it's my principles. 

After all you are just one of those thousands or millions of passer bys in my life.

Few more years later I can't even recognize you if you pass by me in a crowded place. 

That's true. 

So why do I get myself so overwhelmed when some one misunderstand me? 

Nay That's Not Necessary Miss Mei. 

Don't bring yourself unneeded trouble yo. 

So now we had enough of giving explanation, now let's talk about accepting explanation. 

This is something sentimental. 

First, we human being was placed as the top of all living creatures because we have the ability to think and we could development so fast and so well. 

But no matter how we development we can't be fair and just. 

For how many centuries that human of all races chose not being fair but sided at the more favor side. 

Example 1. 

You know your best friend was at fault in a fight with others. But you will still be sided her cause she is your BEST friend. 

Example 2. 

As the headmaster, you know that student A could perform better but you favor student B more and since they are almost the same , you give it to B. 

Clear enough. 

In a second level thinking, no matter how comprehensible your explanation is, as long as the receiver is not by your side, it's like sea water waving by the beach- not even a shit left. 

Yea life is unfair. 

So you don't have to explain. 

In the same time you have the right not to accept any explanation. 

Live as long as you are happy. 

Life is so short why do you need to bother at those unneeded questions? 

A friend in need is a ...

This is a statement so common that even primary school kids are using it like mad. 

A friend in need is a friend indeed. 

This is what I got from wikiditionary and I love the definition 

"A TRUE FRIEND IS ONE WHO HELPS YOU WHEN YOU ARE IN NEED. "

From my very own experience I love this proverb. 

When I was younger I think that there are a few conditions that we must get through before we could unlock the BFFL Badge (Best-Friend-For-Life). 

1. TOGETHERNESS

We went through all the thick and thin moments together. Laughing over the particular dowdy teacher, tell them the guy whom I currently fall for ( which most of the time their jaws drop as they can never comprehend why I would fall for those SPECIAL guys). The extent which we could share things could amaze you cause basically we share everything. And this togetherness not only by it's surface meaning that we do everything together but it also escalated to another level which we remember everyone's habit and their signature body language. It's never exaggerate to say what I could imagine how you would respond when you encounter a particular situation. 

Well sometimes bad things could strengthen our relationship, too. You fight with your BFFL, a lot. You might want to deny that for now but who knows maybe in the future you might have an argument with them, let it be big or small, a fight is a fight. I quarrel with my BFFL a lot. Sometimes it's because of miscommunication and misunderstanding. We had Cold War and we talk nothing to each other but now our friendship grew so strong that even we are a world apart she is not away from my life. 

2. WAVELENGTH and FREQUENCY 

When it's about friendship, time does matter however compability does count as well. 

When we were young we could somehow change a little to match better with our friend but this turn out very tough as we grew older. Indirectly meaning that when we wanna look for BFFL after we had our personality and thinkng fixed , it's solely depends on our wavelength and frequency. 

"Do we have the same hertz? "

When I start talking about A and suddenly jump to G. Please make sure you got me right and not looking at me with a goody eyes. 

Or when I make some weird statements and actions which I expect you to give me the same respond but you eventually didn't. 

Eherm. 

Sorry but let's be acquaintances. 

3. MUTUAL BENEFITS 

The first and second points are something sincere and it could rarely happen as we grow older. Grow older as in we have our own thinking and most of the time we are selfish. After all no one is going to bear for all your losses and care for all of your feelings. 

"It did happen but it's so rare. " 

So when you could find someone (as a friend) who bring you no harm while in the same time you needed them. 

Why not? 

But please don't say that I am being materialistic individualistic or what not. I just want to be frank with you. 

I do treat them as my BFFL too! ( I mean it when I say it! *seriousface)

However these BFFL went through different processes with the BFFL who undergoes process 1 and 2. 

Just a matter of PROCESSes but as a matter of fact they don't have any differences.  

4. OPPOTUNITY - FATE 

You encounter the right person, at the right time, in the right place. 

You need not to know her for a very long time. However you just need to know them at a correct timing. 

I have a few BFFL like this. 

:) 

5: ACCEPTANCE 

This is one of the element to let you know whether he/she is your BFFL. 

You will NEVER EVER get jealous of her. 

Seriously. 

If one day you found yourself feeling jealous or even envy at your so said BFFL , I am sorry. 

She is actually not or I should say you never treated her as one. 

You feel happy for her when she able to get something so great which you can't get it. You feel happy for her instead of murmuring 'why didn't I get it?' 

You sincerely feel sorry for her when anything wrong happen to her. You don't feel sorry just for the sake of feeling sorry but you feel like as if the same thing happen to you. 

You willing to accept all of her flaws but the fact is you can't find any flaw from her. 

"I see you as a perfect figure." 

A FRIEND IN NEED IS A FRIEND INDEED. 

I had once feeling so sad so desperate so emo and I almost bursted into tears when I was driving. 

I am the one in need. I need someone who will be there indeed. 

The message that I really want to convey in this post is that, 

You don't need a whole bunch of friend, that's acquaintances. 

You love to have a few who is always there, that's for life. 

A special acknowledgement to all my BFFLs, 

I thanked you for bearing with all my flaws. 

I thanked you for being with me even I always bog you with stupid problems of mine. 

I love you as much as you love me but I will never show it. 

*crookedsmile 

I am not a young mommy yo

I always believe that raising a child is wonderful and amazing. I used to contemplate the moments when I have my own children and what I would do to raise them. 

However I had never know that what happened this evening happened. 

Where people passing by staring at me and some asked me politely, 

" Where's your child's room number?"

I just smile and I answered, 

"No. I am waiting for someone. "

I actually wonder what would they actually think if I just simply blurted out a room number.

Fuiyoh YOUNG MOMMY YO! 

Siting in the entrance of children's ward for 3 hours makes me ponder about some thoughts. 

I think I will be excited hell if I have my own child. Cause it's definitely like THE OTHER ME. lol 

I don't know it's miserable or not when I saw one family came and visit their ailing family member ( who obviously is a child since I am in paediatic ward). Grandma , father, mother, elder sister and younger brother who is warded. The father help to carry some bags into the room and he came out and sat at the entrance, playing his phone, leaving his wife and mom to take care of the children. Feeding phone and pampering them. 

Young kids surrounds me and they run and they yell and they laugh. Some of them fall but soon they stand up and start playing with other kids again. 

And of the touchiest moment I saw was. 

A 2 years kid walking alone with her mom standing behind her. But she obviously forgot about her mother. She runs so fast and the smile on her face so broad and bright. She runs for few seconds then she wanted her mother. She turned, and there go her mom, standing there with a open arm, smiling. 

What else do you want when you already have someone who always stand behind you and welcome you with a warm embrace and sweet smiles? 

Proudly present you the colourful ambiance of Lam Wah Ee hospital, Penang. 

I am gonna get into trouble if I never change my bad temper.

In Malaysia, have you ever see old man or maimed man laying by the road, begging for money? They bow to you or nod their heads when you give them money or buy them food. 

But do you ever willing to offer your favor? Give them some coins, notes, or better still food. Had you? 

These homeless men are from different races. Just like we have rich people in different races, never ever happened that one particular race monopoly Malaysia's economics ( some of us do hope this happen but for so many reasons it never.) , so does the same go to poor people, they are from different races too. 

What do you do when you are walking by the road and they come into your sight, the homeless man. 

I had never think of this until I met one. And when I never think of this, it's an issue non of my business but when I do, I got a deep thought. 

I went to Kinta City for a walk and on the way back we were hungry and so we looking for food. 

We went to the 24 hours KFC. Brother was parking the car so I stood outside the entrance and waited for him. 

I saw an old man ( till that time I had no idea what's his story). I saw he was counting coins which he taken out from a paper cup with Pepsi logo. Beside him was a small backpack bag with blue cartoon. It's those kind of bag which kids would normally use. And there was a KFC take away plastic bag with him. That's all I saw that moment. 

So what I could deduced from all I saw: 

He was begging for money and of course a Good Samaritan (or himself) bought him a KFC dinner set. Until when I saw one Indian lady drove her car away and greet the uncle good bye. I knew she is the Good Samaritan who bought him the dinner set. 

In fact I wasn't staring at him. I was looking at my bro who was parking the car. There was one pair of Malay couple who were standing next to their motor. Out of sudden the girl talked to me. 

"Itu bangsa you, you tak pergi tolong ke?"

"Huh?" ( I was seriously not in the situation. )

"Itu bangsa you, you tak pergi tolong?"

"Sekarang bukan 1 Malaysia? Masih ada kira bangsa Ke?"

"Ahh. Satu Malaysia la tuhh. Hah. Tapi itu kaum you." 

"Satu Malaysia masih ada kira kaum a?"

I ended the scene with me saying the sentence, turned and walked into KFC. 

Some clarification here. Our chatting scene was normal without any smell of frustration and fury. She smiled to me and started the conversation. I replied with smiles too. But sometimes good sentence doesn't necessary come out from a smiling face. 

I stepped into KFC and my heart pumped like it's going to pop out in any moment. 

I AM AFRAID! 

What I did just now ain't right at all. What if they thought that I am rude and they called their KAKI and hit us? Even if they not dare to hurt us they might put the wrath on our car. And it's so late that anything could happen! 

I was trembling. 

But now I am at home and thanks God. Nothing happened. 

So I start contemplating. 

About homeless people. 

Frankly I feel so sad seeing them. 

Why we got a comfort house to stay and they need to look for a shelter along the corridor. 

Why do we buy branded bags when they use unwanted bag most probably picking up from a garbage site. 

Why do we go to high class restaurant which you pay a lot and what's on your plate can't even feed your cat, when they can only have a simple KFC dinner set which even DONATED by pedestrian. 

Why?

Whenever I think of all these Whys, my heart ache. 

They are homeless, most of them are old, thin, most probably weak and sick.  Could you imagine how chilling it's sleeping along the street at night? 

I feel so helpless because I can't help them. 

Maybe I should buy him another KFC dinner set. But what for? He had already got one and even if I buy him one more set, it was just pleasing the people around me and even myself. Because I showed my generosity and kindness by buying meal for the homeless. But do that really help? He already eaten and he was full and why do he need food again? What if he keep it till tomorrow, he would eat it and stomachache and who's going to send him to hospital? He was outside the 24 hours KFC. There are a lot of good Samaritans in Ipoh and I could quite confirm that he wouldn't be starving. 

How about money? How much I should give? And I think that giving people money when they didn't do work is actually insulting them. Honestly that's how I feel if I am going to give money to people when they are not doing anything. If you always have tauge chicken in Lou Wong, you could see an old Chinese uncle selling Premier tissue paper around the shops. I would always buy from him and pay RM5. That's much more than three packs of tissue paper worth, but I am willing to pay and I am happy doing that. Because that's not an insultion. I paid because he did some work and he totally worth getting that paid. 

But the same doesn't happen to that homeless man outside the 24 hours KFC! 

I would rather buy him food instead of paying him. 

But in the same time I started thinking why would he need to be homeless in this old age. 

Like typical Chinese people I believe that that's a reason behind everything happen to you. 

In Chinese we said 

因果报因。

Sometimes in other language it's almost similar to karma. 

What if the homeless man is a drug addict? So his family abandoned him and he beg for money so that he could buy drugs? 

What if he's a serious gambler? He never manage his money that's why when he got older he need to loiter along the street at night. 

There are so many WHAT IFs in my mind. 

Most of them are of that he didn't do well in his young age that's why he needed to be like this. 

I don't know but this really haunt me. That's why I still willing to write this long despite my Lenople being sent to Batu Gajah for repair. 

What I can do to change their lives? 

Or what else I can do to PREVENT youngster today to be the homeless man tomorrow?

Can a temporary teacher for 8 weeks educate the students to work hard, no matter it's a prestige job or a low standard job. 

As long as your earn money in a legal way, you will live your life. 

And you will have a good life though you might not be as rich as Bill Gates. You wouldn't have Prada, Burberry, Audi, Banglo and all those luxurious stuff. 

But you will always be contended and happy. Happy because you can appreciate what you had and be grateful. 

At last. 

I sincerely wanted to apologize to that cute couple. Both of you are cute. I am sorry to be rude. Please don't let me ruined your date. Stay healthy and be happy. 

And I know under Satu Malaysia. We are all Malaysians. 

Happy Independence Day. 

The Fault in Our Stars

This is the book cover. I read this novel before I watched it. I was bliss that I read before I watch it. Because while watching the movie my mind kept contemplating the scene coming next. Movie played for 126 minutes ( however in Malaysia I supposed it's only 120 minutes as some kissing and make out scene had been censored), and I had no idea why time passed so fast! I enjoyed the whole movie from the beginning till the end. 

If I were to use one sentence to conclude the movie, it would be:

"HAZEL GRACE  LANCASTER IS SO HAZEL AND AUGUSTUS WATERS IS SO GUS!"

Told you I read the book. If you haven't watch the movie yet (please tell me that you are going to watch it SOON!), and you are lazy to read the whole book, YESHI have this little summary for you. 

This is vaguely a simple summary so please don't expect to know the whole book in details by just reading this. Trust me, as you won't regret to grab this book from bookstore and regurgitated it for few times (yea I wanted to reread it). You will be mesmerized by the humor in their conversation and overwhelmed with the emotion they had, just by reading WORDS. 

Okay, Let's START! 

Let's study about the title perhaps. (Thanks to Dr Thomas now I study every words in novel, thinking that every words the writer used has its implied meaning. *clapclapclap)

THE FAULT IN OUR STARS. 

Why is fault? Maybe because both of them are cancer patient. This is the fault in them, they are somehow the side effect that goddamn cancer thing. 

Stars? Not really have a clear cut thought at why it's stars? John Green said that drinking champagne is like drinking STARS. 

FOUND IT IN WIKIPEDIA

"The title is inspired from Act 1, Scene 2 of Shakespeare's play Julius Caesar, in which the nobleman Cassius says to Brutus: "The fault, dear Brutus, is not in our stars, / But in ourselves, that we are underlings."

retrieved on 20 June 2014

 http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Fault_in_Our_Stars

Hazel Grace Lancaster, a 16 year-old girl. She has thyroid cancer when she was 13, undergo treatment, chemo and etc, finally the cancerous cells attack her lungs and in order to breathe, she needs to carry along an oxygen tank everywhere. 

Augustus Waters, a 17 year-old boy, he has osteosarcoma and therefore he has his leg amputated. He is a very cheerful person, in spite of having a prosthetic leg. 

After they first encounter in the Support Group, Gus immediately dated Hazel to his house to watch a movie- "V for Vendetta". They exchanged number and they start to date each other. One of their favorite spot is a playground near to a cemetery, Funky Bones. It's a place with huge skeletons on grass and kids climb and jump across those "skeletons". 

Hazel's greatest interest is reading. And her all time favorite is a book named " An Imperial Affliction" written by Peter Van Houten. It's a book about a girl Anna who has cancer, the thing happened between her and her family. However this book ended in an awkward way, ended literally in the middle of a sentence. She likes this book so much as she thinks that this book depicts the life of a cancer patient so well that she desperately wants to know the ending, what happen to the other characters in the story. 

Of course she tells Gus about this book and wants Gus to read it too. 

When your crush asked you to read a book, you cant think of a reason not reading it as it can somehow impress your crush. 

So, 

Gus read it and reread it and he as well wants to know what happen to the other characters. 

Gus writes email to Peter Van Houten and he invited both of them to visit him in Amsterdam. Cause he is afraid that telling them the ending of the book through black and white may have resulted in the exposure of a sequel. So Peter offers a meet up. ( However in the later of the story Peter claimed that it's just a polite reply, he actually doesn't mean to ask them for meet up in Amsterdam)

There are a few important scenes happened in Amsterdam:

1. They have a very romantic dinner in a restaurant, Oranjee. 

2. They meet Peter Van Houten and they are so DISAPPOINTED and UPSET when they realised that Peter is actually a drunkard who insult them lot. 

3. However they walk around Amsterdam after meeting the rascal Peter. They somehow Level-Up their relationship here (if you get what I mean by Level-up)

4. Gus tells Hazel that he has ache in his thigh before this Amsterdam trip therefore he went for PET scan and he LIT UP LIKE A CHRISTMAS TREE, HIS LUNGS, KIDNEY, EVERYWHERE. 

They return to Indianapolis, Gus gets sickened and all those treatments and chemo started. 

Gus's humor slowly fade off. He wants to be special, he wants to do something big that may publish in newspaper and everyone will remember him. But now he is sitting in a wheelchair, shrinking, dying off just like that. 

Hazel couldn't agree of that. She thinks that Gus is great in spite all of that and she will remember him for the rest of her life. He could be her universe. 

Gus passed away after staying in ICU for 8 days. Hazel eulogizes him in his funeral. Surprisingly Peter attended the funeral too. He was there because Gus knew that he is dying and he hope that Peter could give Hazel an answer, what happen to the other characters in "AN IMPERIAL AFFLICTION". 

But Hazel is too sad to know about that anymore. 

She rejects Peter. 

Later on she finds out that Gus wrote something when he was sick and he sent it to Peter. 

She contact Peter and finds out that before Gus warded in ICU, he wrote his eulogy for Hazel and sent it to Peter hoping that Peter could amend it for him. 

Gus hopes that he can give a eulogy speech in Hazel's funeral but he knows he have no more time for it. 

Though Gus couldn't read it, Peter reply his email saying:

"NOTHING MUCH THAT I COULD ADD."

The novel ended by Hazel reading the letter written by Gus.

My summary might be so so so brief, I am not a good writer either.
Perhaps I should read for the second time and make some amendments afterwards.

Let's end this post with quote from The Fault in Our Stars.

“I fell in love like you would fall asleep: slowly and then all at once.” 

― John Green

Day 10 as Leng Lui Lou Si.

Officially ended my second week of intern in school. It's about a quarter past. Only 6 more weeks to go.

Time flies. 

Nothing much to tell today. Cause it's a kind of typical day as a teacher. 

Didn't have any special feeling or thoughts as well. 

Neither feel very excited nor emo. 

Everything just NORMAL. 

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Ben & Lynette

Working as part time in Hush Puppies and I went to Ben & Lynette when I had my break. 

Lol 

Please clap for my geniusity. 

At first I thought the food there just so so. I mean there are hell lot of cafes outside which have so comfy ambience and cute decoration but the food they served is overpriced which don't deserve such high price cause it's not that tasty pun. 

I went to the Ben & Lynette before. It's the one next to Secret Garden. I had Turkey Carbonara and I think that it's too oily. 

OVERALL, I AM NOT IMPRESSED. 

But today My brain short circuit and I went to the Ben & Lynette branch in Ipoh Parade. 

And. 

I CHANGED MY MIND! 

Maybe their turkey carbonara still remain less impressive. But the other dishes, generally it's not bad. I would give a thumbsup for Chicken Cordon Bleu!!! 

I LOVE IT! 

 

Look at how they set the dish. How they put the cordon bleu into that love shape. And the grilled mushroom, vege. 

FABULOUS!!!! 

Would highly recommend this!! 

 

Let you have a closer look at the chicken breast meat which cover ham and cheese. 

Nom nom nom. 

Also ordered Alfredo. This is better than the beef Alfredo which I had in Harvest Time in Penang. The Alfredo there taste no different with carbonara. This one got a strong taste of certain herbs. I don't know what's the name of that herbs but I know I have tasted the same thing in different type of spaghetti. 

This also impressed me lot. TIRAMISU!! That smooth texture when I had a spoonful of it. It got a little of alcohol but not that strong. Served in small size but satisfying. Gonna try other cake next time but I think it's not that worth it. Cause a small piece of cheese cake cost RM13.90 with that small size and also 10% service tax. 

Kinda feel like not worth it. Better I go Twelve Cup or China House. 

And stupid me this time also ordered Turkey Carbonara. It tasted the same as the one I had last time. Oily and made me lost my appetite. 

Okie. 

GOOD DAY COMES WITH GOOD FOOD.